Year on year, I’ve been trying to start my year right. I would try to remove cobwebs from the previous year and look forward to the new year with a renewed spirit. I would go around and preoccupy myself with the holiday festivity.
This week, things were different. I missed out on a lot of things. I missed out on my planned activities. 2010’s cobwebs are still… well… cobwebs. No signs of renewed energy yet.
I am writing this in between coughs, in between sessions with the nebulizer. I sometimes sound like a baby hyena. Sometimes like a rundown engine... I was forced to stay at home and… stare. I am now paying for all the abuses I did with my health because I thought I was invincible. Of course, I was wrong. My agimat doesn’t work.
Amidst the wheezing, sneezing and coughing, I was able to think about a lot of things. I thought about how negligent I was in taking care of my health. I thought about the way I attempted to move my boundaries and set new targets for myself. I thought about how thankful I should be that I was forced to rest before I get the ball rolling in 2011. Hence, New Year’s resolution # 1: Thou shalt not mess with your health, lest you pay a hundred fold plus interest.
I also thought about the previous year. In retrospect, 2010 was a good year. It was a mix of new hopes, new learnings, new friends, and new opportunities. It was a good mix of pain and happiness, failure and success, endings and beginnings. Bumpy rides were worthwhile with fabulous family and friends. Last year showed me how obscure I am as compared to the magnificently shaped the world. Last year was a blessed year with a FAITHFUL God.
Regardless if 01.01.11 is different from my usual New Year’s Day, I look forward to 2011 with a broad smile and a thankful heart.
